A Look Back

I am beginning to feel a little remorse for all of the things that my boys have outgrown. Going from a stay-at-home mom of 7 years to a full-time working mom is not without its regrets. I did not just "dip my toe" back into the working world. I dove head first. I love my job and am so happy to be doing what I love. But everyday I think of all of the things that I am missing with my boys. I want to freeze time back to when Colin was in half day Kindergarten and Cam was in part-time preschool. Those were there days....

I know that with both boys in school full-time, that even if I stayed home things would not be the same. In fact, I would be a sad sad mommy waiting for my kids to come home from school everyday. At least this way, I don't pine the day away waiting for them to walk through the door.

No, instead, our days go something like this....

I get up at dark 'o thirty to exercise. The morning is the only time I have to exercise since by 4pm when I get home I am toast.

So, I get up at dark o' thirty and exercise. Sometime between 6:30am-7:00am the boys wake up. Occasionally they will sit down and have breakfast with me but most of the time they have not had breakfast when I leave for work at 7:30am.

I get to see them a little throughout the day. A hug here. A wave there. It is nice to be able to see them during the day. Then at 3:30pm we load up in the car and go home. That's it. No special process. No special snack. No special anything.

I miss the days when we could spend 2 hours in the morning at Waneka Lake and have a picnic. I miss the days when we could hang out at the play place in the mall or go to the gymnastics for 2 hours for open gym.

My boys have nearly outgrown the rec center min-miners facility. Bounce houses are a bit questionable for Colin and they both surpass the height chart for the play area at the mall. Parks are fun as long as they have the right equipment but the novelty of playing in the sand is wearing off.

We have nearly outgrown the WOW museum, the Butterfly Pavilion and Discovery Days. These boys are growing up too fast.

My kids are doing homework, chores and are playing outside with the neighbors without our supervision. That whole, "enjoy these days because your kids will grow up too fast" thing is really true. I want to rewind to the 5 and 3 year old days. I know I am crazy for saying it but those crafty mornings and lazy afternoons are sorely missed.